…for a practice.
I believe everything is ultimately a practice or an opportunity to practice love.
When I say “love” I don’t mean like how we usually think of it. When I say “love”, I don’t mean like it’s something to do or say. When I say “love”, I mean that it’s a space to come from -a context – that shapes your way of being.
This “space” isn’t so foreign; consider it’s a sort of homecoming. A return home….a return to love.
And yet, it’s a return to no “thing”. Like looking at it with a child-like wonder.
And it’s from this place of nothing – this context of love – that gives you. It shows up in: how you speak, what you think, what you say, what you do, how you do it, what you have, what you choose, how you breathe, how you move, your health, mannerisms, energetic bodies, body structure etc.
It’s a place to come from. It is as impartial as the sun. It doesn’t come from obligation, or your past experiences, or what you think it should be or look like. It isn’t a place to get to. It’s a place to come from. Not a destination, but a journey. It is newly created – from nothing. And you practice it moment by moment.
Sound heavy, significant…and maybe even impossible?
Kind of like love. It’s always there. It’s always been there. Sometimes we just have take away the things in the way of it.
And so the practice….of reconnecting to love.
Yoga poses are so complex and multi-dimensional. Certainly not a “one size fits all” as everyone has a unique body structure, learned behavioural & physical patterns. lifestyle, health, strength, flexibility. It’s all so intertwined.
If you come from the context of love, what kind of difference would that make in your physical practice?
For me, it certainly makes me compassionate with where I am in my body. That it’s ok if I can’t do half of the poses that the person beside me does. It has me be in an inquiry about what’s going on inside and honour those feelings.
What makes it so interesting is that nothing is ever the same. You can’t recreate the exact same practice – EVER. Because who you are today is not who you were yesterday. Nothing can be 100% replicated. Your body, fellow practioners bodies, the air composition, the sun, the clouds, the thoughts in your head won’t be the exact same etc. You get the point. Everything is constantly moving.
And if you practiced from the context of love, what kind of difference would be possible given that your practice will never ever be recreated?
Annnnndddd of course, yoga isn’t just about the physical poses. What is going on inside? Mentally. Emotionally. Energetically. Again – it’s not a linear thing.
About two months into my practice, I realized – the hard way – that I wasn’t aligned in my chaturanga. I didn’t have the strength to do the pose correctly. It became my nemesis pose. I hated it. I was frustrated as fuck. Certainly no love there. I remember saying “I can’t do it” to my teacher. And she said “yes you can”. Needless to say, it was a miserable month or two. Totally suffering not only physically, but also suffering with all the negative thoughts going on in my head. (I’m not good enough. I’m not worthy. I should quit. I can’t wait till I’m finished etc).
That wasn’t yoga.
But sometimes you have to see what it’s not to see what is.
(At least, what I “see” right now).
Even though I’m talking a lot about “yoga”, I’m really talking about life.
If I came from the context of love, how would I choose to live? how would I speak to the people in my life? would I just frigging climb Machu Picchu (ghosts and all lol)? what would I create? how would I be at work? who do I want to be for others? What would I put in my body? Would I tell my cousin I miss her? How would I spend my time? What would I dare to dream about? How would I listen to people? What would my life look like? What would I allow into my life? etc
It’s not like I need all the answers to the million questions in my head. That’s not the point. What’s important is to create this moment by moment. To come from love – however that looks like in that moment. Of course, I will fall down a million times. But it’s a practice. Not a destination. It takes faith to be true. It takes courage. It takes heart. And a willingness to be free….
Just imagine such a practice!!!
On second thought, don’t.
Just be it, right here, right now.